Black holes of unfulfilled promises
Steel cages of our own design
The shaking roars of a mother's rage
Terror to a child
Canvas to an artist
Strokes of a brush
Strums on strings
Let this new music ring
ring far and ring wide
all across the country-side
because jesus left chicago
headed for new orleans
Home of artists
Home of vice
He tried to purge the sorrow
and found he purged the soul
Thursday, January 29, 2009
OH BABY IT’S A FREE FOR ALL!
Ok, this makes two rants in a day; I think I might have a problem. Oh well, better then bottling it up some would say.
For those of you who know the song referenced in the title, this requires little explaining. But for those of you who don’t it’s fairly simple. It’s basically Ted Nugent going on about how relationships and shit there are no rules when it comes to getting the girl before the other guy.
To reference another line to prove the point, “WHEN IN DOUBT I PULL IT OUT, I GOT ME A ROCK AND ROLL BAND; WELL IT’S A FREE FOR ALL”. When the song was written it was in the middle of the cultural phase were if a guy could prove he played in a rock and roll band it was like a have sex free card, making the point of the line obvious; if he needs to he will play that card to get a girl instead of another guy.
Those of you who know my personality (I also notice, I keep writing like I assume people will see my blog, when really only one of my friends knows about it. Oh well, I’ll do it anyway.) Would likely know this isn’t something that fits me. “Why would he write about saying he’s in a band to fuck someone?” Well, mainly because that’s not the point.
The point is I think I have come to realize, there really are no rules when it comes to “getting the girl” you never know what the hell she wants, and even when you do, it’s likely someone else satisfies that more. So basically, Nugent’s words still hold truth. It’s just a big free-for-all. Whoever gets there first and does what needs to be done wins.
Sometimes it’s not even logical, something, which should be a bad thing, turns out to be a good thing for them. I’m not even going to attempt to figure out what girls want, and I’m the guy who had nothing but girls for friends for a long time.
I think that sometimes people take things way to personally. I have had a history of being the guy who happens to like the person his best guy friends likes. It’s rather annoying; and I’ve almost let it ruin those friendships before.
I think it’s like a revelation or something stupid like that, really the world is a matter of first come first serve and I think that someone who lets something like a girl/guy get in the way of their friendship is being a douche.
Think about it. Obviously they’re with your friend because they are happy with them. That means that they wouldn’t be happy with you. Would you really want to try and break the happiness your friends have, when you’re not even going to get happiness out of it?
It’s being a douche.
I just realized that not only am I defending a friend right here when he’ll likely never know it, nor will anyone reading it know the context, but making myself feel better. Oh and Maxx; probably not about what your thinking if your reading this.
I just read through this and it kind of jumps around and fails to put out there a couple points I wanted and sounds like just rambling; but that’s ok :D
For those of you who know the song referenced in the title, this requires little explaining. But for those of you who don’t it’s fairly simple. It’s basically Ted Nugent going on about how relationships and shit there are no rules when it comes to getting the girl before the other guy.
To reference another line to prove the point, “WHEN IN DOUBT I PULL IT OUT, I GOT ME A ROCK AND ROLL BAND; WELL IT’S A FREE FOR ALL”. When the song was written it was in the middle of the cultural phase were if a guy could prove he played in a rock and roll band it was like a have sex free card, making the point of the line obvious; if he needs to he will play that card to get a girl instead of another guy.
Those of you who know my personality (I also notice, I keep writing like I assume people will see my blog, when really only one of my friends knows about it. Oh well, I’ll do it anyway.) Would likely know this isn’t something that fits me. “Why would he write about saying he’s in a band to fuck someone?” Well, mainly because that’s not the point.
The point is I think I have come to realize, there really are no rules when it comes to “getting the girl” you never know what the hell she wants, and even when you do, it’s likely someone else satisfies that more. So basically, Nugent’s words still hold truth. It’s just a big free-for-all. Whoever gets there first and does what needs to be done wins.
Sometimes it’s not even logical, something, which should be a bad thing, turns out to be a good thing for them. I’m not even going to attempt to figure out what girls want, and I’m the guy who had nothing but girls for friends for a long time.
I think that sometimes people take things way to personally. I have had a history of being the guy who happens to like the person his best guy friends likes. It’s rather annoying; and I’ve almost let it ruin those friendships before.
I think it’s like a revelation or something stupid like that, really the world is a matter of first come first serve and I think that someone who lets something like a girl/guy get in the way of their friendship is being a douche.
Think about it. Obviously they’re with your friend because they are happy with them. That means that they wouldn’t be happy with you. Would you really want to try and break the happiness your friends have, when you’re not even going to get happiness out of it?
It’s being a douche.
I just realized that not only am I defending a friend right here when he’ll likely never know it, nor will anyone reading it know the context, but making myself feel better. Oh and Maxx; probably not about what your thinking if your reading this.
I just read through this and it kind of jumps around and fails to put out there a couple points I wanted and sounds like just rambling; but that’s ok :D
Je ne sais pas
If you know what that means then congratulations, either you speak a bit of French or I know you in real life (IRL). If you don’t, well I don’t know either.
How would you feel if someone offered you an escape? The ability to drop everything you have and know, when you’re in the middle of a breakdown and hating your life and existence; and start over.
You would disappear from your place in life and without great effort never have to deal with it again. You could start over. Doesn’t it sound so nice? Imagine yourself hating yourself and everything in your life, now imagine being offer a ticket out. Would you take it?
…Don’t take it. Whatever you do, DO. NOT. TAKE. THE. TICKET. Because little do you know, there is a massive chance that things won’t be so perfect. You’ll open your eyes and realize how it wasn’t so bad and how truly lucky you were, and how now it’s gone and not coming back. It is the most miserable feeling that you will ever have. Especially since the ticket also doesn’t mention the two weeks alone before.
I recently switched schools. I went from a small private school called Wakefield, where the entire school, Pre-K to Senior Year, numbered about 450. I knew every single person in the high school on a first name basis and for most of it knew their last and nicknames too. I had loads of friends, and while 95% of them were not very close, I at least knew who they were. Not to mention the ones who were close. The ones who were more like dysfunctional family then friends. I say this because they weren’t all the same and didn’t always get along. I was friends with nerds, jocks, stoners, self-righteous “knights”, Bitchy girls, preppy girls, tomboys, you name it.
Now I’m alone. I am being switched over to Fhs (Fauquier High School). In this school, where the high school alone is 1,500 people, I know approximately three people. One of which I am not on very good terms with right now for a reason I don’t know, and I don’t really know the other two very well.
I was supposed to start two days ago, but of course get snow days. I normally love snow days, I get to stay inside and drink my tea, or practice the four-wheeler on ice (which is a very fun way to show off to people). But now I am wishing for it to all melt or have never come. I am terrified and just want to get this stupid thing over with.
I guess the moral of the rant is just that, even when your sitting there, and your miserable, and you are to the point where every time you see something sharp you wonder if you could slash your throat with it. Stop. Step back, and look at everything you have. I had a school were I had friends, a first in my life, a girl in the works, and basically a family; people who loved me. (Big deal for me because I don’t really have a family even though I have a mother and father) and now it’s all gone.
I have one of those friends who is switching over with me, the girl has basically reduced anything that would be there into a friends with benefits or nothing choice, and now I only really still talk to two people who I was close to at my old school, excluding this one kid who is beginning to get on my nerves who is always trying to hang out. And one of them can barely ever talk.
What did I give this all up for? For some easier schoolwork? To not have to fix things with the administration? No, I took the coward’s way out. Because I was too scared to stand up for myself and fix my grades and my relation with the administration, because I had lost my moral when they took theatre away from me. They took part of my life, and it happened to be crucial. I threw my hands in the air and shouted SAVE ME GOD DAMMIT. You know what they say, be careful what you wish for.
So hopefully I can get this first day shit over with tomorrow and have a friend or two in at least one of my classes. Chris has yet to introduce me to anyone but Jane and his brother so he’s no help right now. Whatever, he seemed to have not cared last time I called him so meh, we will see. If I lose him too, I am going to be pissed.
there's a rant for you :P
How would you feel if someone offered you an escape? The ability to drop everything you have and know, when you’re in the middle of a breakdown and hating your life and existence; and start over.
You would disappear from your place in life and without great effort never have to deal with it again. You could start over. Doesn’t it sound so nice? Imagine yourself hating yourself and everything in your life, now imagine being offer a ticket out. Would you take it?
…Don’t take it. Whatever you do, DO. NOT. TAKE. THE. TICKET. Because little do you know, there is a massive chance that things won’t be so perfect. You’ll open your eyes and realize how it wasn’t so bad and how truly lucky you were, and how now it’s gone and not coming back. It is the most miserable feeling that you will ever have. Especially since the ticket also doesn’t mention the two weeks alone before.
I recently switched schools. I went from a small private school called Wakefield, where the entire school, Pre-K to Senior Year, numbered about 450. I knew every single person in the high school on a first name basis and for most of it knew their last and nicknames too. I had loads of friends, and while 95% of them were not very close, I at least knew who they were. Not to mention the ones who were close. The ones who were more like dysfunctional family then friends. I say this because they weren’t all the same and didn’t always get along. I was friends with nerds, jocks, stoners, self-righteous “knights”, Bitchy girls, preppy girls, tomboys, you name it.
Now I’m alone. I am being switched over to Fhs (Fauquier High School). In this school, where the high school alone is 1,500 people, I know approximately three people. One of which I am not on very good terms with right now for a reason I don’t know, and I don’t really know the other two very well.
I was supposed to start two days ago, but of course get snow days. I normally love snow days, I get to stay inside and drink my tea, or practice the four-wheeler on ice (which is a very fun way to show off to people). But now I am wishing for it to all melt or have never come. I am terrified and just want to get this stupid thing over with.
I guess the moral of the rant is just that, even when your sitting there, and your miserable, and you are to the point where every time you see something sharp you wonder if you could slash your throat with it. Stop. Step back, and look at everything you have. I had a school were I had friends, a first in my life, a girl in the works, and basically a family; people who loved me. (Big deal for me because I don’t really have a family even though I have a mother and father) and now it’s all gone.
I have one of those friends who is switching over with me, the girl has basically reduced anything that would be there into a friends with benefits or nothing choice, and now I only really still talk to two people who I was close to at my old school, excluding this one kid who is beginning to get on my nerves who is always trying to hang out. And one of them can barely ever talk.
What did I give this all up for? For some easier schoolwork? To not have to fix things with the administration? No, I took the coward’s way out. Because I was too scared to stand up for myself and fix my grades and my relation with the administration, because I had lost my moral when they took theatre away from me. They took part of my life, and it happened to be crucial. I threw my hands in the air and shouted SAVE ME GOD DAMMIT. You know what they say, be careful what you wish for.
So hopefully I can get this first day shit over with tomorrow and have a friend or two in at least one of my classes. Chris has yet to introduce me to anyone but Jane and his brother so he’s no help right now. Whatever, he seemed to have not cared last time I called him so meh, we will see. If I lose him too, I am going to be pissed.
there's a rant for you :P
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Friends with benefits
It’s an odd term; I mean, what other benefits could you have from a friend? Don’t they already give you all of them? They’re there for you when you need someone to lean on; they’re there for you when you need a helping hand; and they’re there with you to share in celebration; hell with a little help from your friends you can do most everything. What’s left?
Sex.
Yes, Sex.
That is the one thing that you don’t get from your friends. The one thing you don’t get is sex and everything that comes with it; be it kissing during the movie, holding hands as you walk, fucking and being fucked sideways, you name it. If it’s sexual you don’t get it from a normal friend.
I think I just made it pretty obvious what friends with benefits are. When two friends who are attracted to each other physically but not emotionally both satisfy the others urges. It can come in all degrees. It can be as extreme as full on fucking, all the way down to the innocent holding hands and a peck on the cheek from grade-schoolers.
The question I have to ask, is simple, is this right? Should it be morally ok for two people to perform these actions without loving, to some degree anyway, each other? Is it even right when two people are emotionally confused but want to feel good then?
I see two sides in this argument, although I am sure some of you will fall in the middle of them. The first side would be the self-considered righteous side, that people should keep these acts sacred and only perform them out of affection or love. The other side of course, would be that people can do whatever they want as long as they are fine with it.
Personally I don’t know where I stand. Having been on both sides of the argument at some point or another; It would make sense to me either way. What would I do if I found myself in this position is what I ask in order to find my answer. What would I do if I had a girl on me saying lets kiss, lets make out, lets hold each other, lets fuck, lets do whatever.
I’d do it. I cannot lie to myself that as a teenage guy if I was attracted to the girl, I would do it. Would I think it right after I did it? Well, here in lies what I am trying to get to. I suspect a fair amount of people would do it. I don’t think that this would stand at all on their morals or what they thought. In my mind for example, if I teenager said they wouldn’t do it if they found the other attractive, I think they’d be lying.
I would think that they want to look moral and better then the rest of us, or that they’d be too scared to do it but would want to do it more then anything, or that they’ve never experienced something like holding a person close and kissing them, they wouldn’t truly know what they were turning down.
I just don’t know if they would think it right. One other thing is honestly I don’t think someone can pass judgment until they’ve been in the position at one time or another and know what it feels like. Emotions are not something that can be based on logic, because they have a nasty habit of breaking out of logic.
Sex.
Yes, Sex.
That is the one thing that you don’t get from your friends. The one thing you don’t get is sex and everything that comes with it; be it kissing during the movie, holding hands as you walk, fucking and being fucked sideways, you name it. If it’s sexual you don’t get it from a normal friend.
I think I just made it pretty obvious what friends with benefits are. When two friends who are attracted to each other physically but not emotionally both satisfy the others urges. It can come in all degrees. It can be as extreme as full on fucking, all the way down to the innocent holding hands and a peck on the cheek from grade-schoolers.
The question I have to ask, is simple, is this right? Should it be morally ok for two people to perform these actions without loving, to some degree anyway, each other? Is it even right when two people are emotionally confused but want to feel good then?
I see two sides in this argument, although I am sure some of you will fall in the middle of them. The first side would be the self-considered righteous side, that people should keep these acts sacred and only perform them out of affection or love. The other side of course, would be that people can do whatever they want as long as they are fine with it.
Personally I don’t know where I stand. Having been on both sides of the argument at some point or another; It would make sense to me either way. What would I do if I found myself in this position is what I ask in order to find my answer. What would I do if I had a girl on me saying lets kiss, lets make out, lets hold each other, lets fuck, lets do whatever.
I’d do it. I cannot lie to myself that as a teenage guy if I was attracted to the girl, I would do it. Would I think it right after I did it? Well, here in lies what I am trying to get to. I suspect a fair amount of people would do it. I don’t think that this would stand at all on their morals or what they thought. In my mind for example, if I teenager said they wouldn’t do it if they found the other attractive, I think they’d be lying.
I would think that they want to look moral and better then the rest of us, or that they’d be too scared to do it but would want to do it more then anything, or that they’ve never experienced something like holding a person close and kissing them, they wouldn’t truly know what they were turning down.
I just don’t know if they would think it right. One other thing is honestly I don’t think someone can pass judgment until they’ve been in the position at one time or another and know what it feels like. Emotions are not something that can be based on logic, because they have a nasty habit of breaking out of logic.
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